How was your New Year's Eve?
I hope that all you have promissed to yourselves or this what you are dreaming for will come true!
I am wondering what this new 2015 year holds for me... Last year wasn't perfect, I guess it's even silly to expect sth perfect from un-perfect world. But still there were many rocky roads and I have fallen more times then I can count.
At the end of 2013 I have finished my 3 years relationship. It wasn't easy. It changed me and seriously messed me up, I lost my ways. That was a time when I made decision and started my dancing again. After that I have decided to leave my day job as trainings, private lessons and dance stuff in general was taking too much out of me and I knew I wouldn't be able to keep on doing both for much longer. So, my income went down as I started to live out of dance jobs only. However I was still very happy cuz I was doing sth what after all... I love so deeply.
Ahhh... if this only could've been all. On some point I started to feel lonely. I started on thinking that having someone next to me would be like a sweet cherry on a chocolate cake. As it turned out I was wrong. Not only my reasons for going into sth but the person himself was a total mistske... just hurt me more. As I haven't shared any of my feelings on that relation I have managed to got up quite quickly.
I don't really know to whom or if I should thank, but that's not all. On the 15th of December I have met someone as it turned up who I knew for the past 7 years... I started new, real, honest, loving relationship and I still dance! I am a bit scared to open myself again an to be hurt again... but somewhere deep inside I feel like it can't be different I just have to give it a go. I am very happy... At this point of this new relationship in my life I could not imagine to have it with anyone else.
So yes, even that it was a hard year, full of life changing decisions I can still say that I am happy. That even that I still fight with all my problems - now, I don't do it alone... I dance... I smile... And my heart feels funny each time I think of my partner... This new person who entered my life so suddenly and from the first minute found for himself a little place in my heart!
I guess what I want to say is that life may very often feel unfair and give us bad time one time after another... But if we stay calm and remain strong we can be sure that we are heading towards sun, the better days!
That was my year, some things to celebrate and some to forget... but New Year is just once a year and I hope you made the most of it!
Happy New Year Everyone!
I am going to get ready to bed I have to be fresh for tomorrow's training. With a new year I promissed myself to enter some of very important dance competitions and I like to be ready. So, working hard and harder is my new favorite thing! :)
I will see you soon!
Keep Calm & DANCE!
Adrian :)
